So I just need to vent a little and sort out my thoughts.
I am turning 28 here in a few days and I have never finished any post secondary education. I just made it out of high school grade wise as school and grades were never big for me. After grad I did go to college but I basically waisted 2grand on nothing, I am paying off the student loan still and the only thing I was able to accomplish out of that was a dept load and a low grade point average. I went back to school later on and almost completed my family child care certificate as I thought maybe I would like to continue on and get my ECE, but personal circumstance changed and fate interfered causing me to discontinue what I was doing.
So now 3 years have almost past since then I still dont have a certificate or diploma for anything, but I am happy at my job. I love doing what I do, which is working with people with disabilities. I love the way I feel when I am at work but I dont know if its something I want to do for the rest of my life. I do know that its the field I would like to continue in but at what level?
On June 12th I am suppose to go and chose some classes for the fall towards the social work diploma, and I am finding myself very confused on what to do. In all honesty with the way my hours are at work it is very hard to get classes to match them and I work a 36hr + week so time is a huge factor. I also have been talking to my mom or rather my mom has been talking with me and she feels that I need to clean up my dept before I continue on with education. Now this sort of confuses me as she has always been the one pushing me to do more for myself. How can I do more for myself if I dont further with my education, yet I do see her point with the financial end of it. How am I suppose to afford school right now, which honestly I cant. Car payments and other nasty depts sort of tie up my money.
So I dont know what to do. A few months ago I had decided that I didnt want to go back to school right yet, that I was happy in my career and that I could pick schooling up later on. But then Im looking at my future and I see the possibilities of marriage and family and the reality of going back to school doesnt seem so real then. So this is my dilemma, this is my constant thought in my head and I would like it to go away.
Thanks for the ear. Cheers :)
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4 comments:
Yes, Jess that is complicated!
You really need to pray and see where God would like you to be in the future.
There are so many things to weigh and divide into pro and cons as well. I'm glad that you enjoy your job because that helps you get out of bed in the morning and I know that the people with disablilities like routine etc. On the other hand, if marriage is in your future,;-) there is no other job like being a housewife and mother...(which don't forget you already are!) but if times get rough it is nice to have a career to full back on.
I just realized I probably didn't help you but probably made things a little more complicated. I truly do hope that you decide what you'd like to do in the future on your own.
thanks for complicating things lol.
actually I have decided not to go back right now but am doing so with the mind set to do it in the future with better timing. I feel really good about it, like its the right thing to do. Sometimes our answeres come so clear and other times they are not.
K i just wrote the longest comment ever and effing blogger erased it. Short version, I know what ur going thru, exact same over here, almost to the word, so never fear, i am here. The long one was way more supportive and in depth, but egads, wud u look at the time...
I too think you need some major discernment to discover your calling. "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart." What are your desires? Praying that He will lead you in the right direction and that you will have eyes to see...
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