Confused

So I just need to vent a little and sort out my thoughts.

I am turning 28 here in a few days and I have never finished any post secondary education. I just made it out of high school grade wise as school and grades were never big for me. After grad I did go to college but I basically waisted 2grand on nothing, I am paying off the student loan still and the only thing I was able to accomplish out of that was a dept load and a low grade point average. I went back to school later on and almost completed my family child care certificate as I thought maybe I would like to continue on and get my ECE, but personal circumstance changed and fate interfered causing me to discontinue what I was doing.

So now 3 years have almost past since then I still dont have a certificate or diploma for anything, but I am happy at my job. I love doing what I do, which is working with people with disabilities. I love the way I feel when I am at work but I dont know if its something I want to do for the rest of my life. I do know that its the field I would like to continue in but at what level?

On June 12th I am suppose to go and chose some classes for the fall towards the social work diploma, and I am finding myself very confused on what to do. In all honesty with the way my hours are at work it is very hard to get classes to match them and I work a 36hr + week so time is a huge factor. I also have been talking to my mom or rather my mom has been talking with me and she feels that I need to clean up my dept before I continue on with education. Now this sort of confuses me as she has always been the one pushing me to do more for myself. How can I do more for myself if I dont further with my education, yet I do see her point with the financial end of it. How am I suppose to afford school right now, which honestly I cant. Car payments and other nasty depts sort of tie up my money.

So I dont know what to do. A few months ago I had decided that I didnt want to go back to school right yet, that I was happy in my career and that I could pick schooling up later on. But then Im looking at my future and I see the possibilities of marriage and family and the reality of going back to school doesnt seem so real then. So this is my dilemma, this is my constant thought in my head and I would like it to go away.

Thanks for the ear. Cheers :)

among the last bloggers

I haven't been the best at posting blogs since facebook, but I try to get one off at least once a week even if nothing too interesting happened just to keep it going. Is anyone else feeling forgotten in the blogging world since facebook came about. Well to all who still blog, I salute you! Keep it up.

I had a pretty mellow holiday. It started May 19th and sadly I am back to work this afternoon. I just feel so relaxed I didnt really realize how much my job took out of me till I got away from it. But now that it is summer the fun begins, I have things that I want to do for myself and I intend to procrastinate on them no longer! K I say that now but.....we will see when it really happens. I am planning a trip to Manning with a friend in June, have a girls weekend for July and holidays again in August so hopefully rest will be had.

Most of my holiday pictures were of the camping trip so I dont really have anything to share. Here are a few from my weekend. Enjoy and keep blogging.

Wild May long weekend

Harrison West

Tent Village

This weekend a bunch of us headed up to Harrison West, for those who aren't sure where it is its up past Weaver and Wolf lake. 4x4 country. I was quite impressed that my little car made it up there without problems. My buddies went up Friday night to get a spot and Dana and I met them Sat morning. I was expecting it to be poring and was so excited to see that the weather wasn't half bad. It did rain some but there were also moment of sun which was so nice.

Jen and her man brought up the quads so we were able to double up and go on small adventures, I got to shoot my first shot gun and 22. Oh yeah, i felt the power. There is something besides the pain of the kickback, that is so amazing about shooting off a high powered toy. It was great, and ya I have a bit of a bruise but it was all worth it. So we played hard all weekend had a blast then today as we were loading up Jen tells Dana that theres this great view that he would love and Jer ( her man) suggests taking the guns again for one last round of fun before heading home. Since there was only two quads and Jen is still learning on hers I voted to stay back and finish up packing the car. Dana jumped on with Jer, shot gun on his back in a case and off they went. When they returned I noticed that their faces weren't as happy as when they left. Everyone looked really solem. Then I noticed the but end of Jer's gun case. There was a huge tear, well it didn't take me long to realize that the tear was not a tear but a huge burn mark and the insides of the shot gun were showing. Now a tad worried I asked what happened. Dana starts to inform me that he wrecked the gun, soon to be interrupted and corrected that it wasn't his fault but just a very unfortunate accident that could of gone really bad. The gun had been hanging near the exhast and the sound of the material melting was put off as quad noises. On the other side of the case was a box of live rounds and a magnum shot, which is a large bullet. That large bullet was facing Dana's back and when they stopped and noticed the damage they also noticed that the bullet had started to heat as well. They figured that another five minutes or so that magnum would of heated and gone off straight through the backs of both Dana and Jer. I was so grateful as well as everyone else that the worse didn't happen. That right there pretty much ended the day and we all packed up the rest of our stuff and headed home.

Us Gals

No I am at home looking at my camping gear telling it to put its self away but it just wont listen. I have managed to get the dishes washed that I didn't do this morning and got half of our fire smelling clothes washed. Ick. I love camping and being out doors but I hate the clean up after words. I wonder if you could hire someone to empty your car, put away your stuff, and cook your dinner for you. Oh well, we shall continue to dream.

I have another camping trip coming up in June and I know that it wont be nearly as exciting but as far as the first camping of the year I must give this one a 4 star rating!

Dane and I after a long day

I sorted through a couple of pictures to share, cant post without pictures.

Feelin the power and hurten my shoulder

Jer's shot gun after the heat got to it

A magnum shot into the water, imagine what that would of done to the two of them?
( By the way Jer does have his gun licence, all legal fun)

A serious moment. lol.

Happy Mothers Day

This is for all you moms, I know its a bit sappy but thats ok, we are women, sappy is what we do.

What Is a Mother?

A mother can be almost any size or any age, but she won't admit to anything over thirty. A mother has soft hands and smells good. A mother likes new dresses, music, a clean house, her children's kisses, an automatic washer and Daddy.
A mother doesn't like having her children sick, muddy feet, temper tantrums, loud noise or bad report cards. A mother can read a thermometer (much to the amazement of Daddy) and like magic, can kiss a hurt away.
A mother can bake good cakes and pies but likes to see her children eat vegetables. A mother can stuff a fat baby into a snowsuit in seconds and can kiss sad little faces and make them smile.
A mother is underpaid, has long hours and gets very little rest. She worries too much about her children but she says she doesn't mind at all.And no matter how old her children are, she still likes to think of them as her little babies.
She is the guardian angel of the family, the queen, the tender hand of love. A mother is the best friend anyone ever had. A mother is love. - Author Unknown

Real Mothers

Real Mothers don't eat quiche; they don't have time to make it.
Real Mothers know that their kitchen utensils are probably in the sandbox.
Real Mothers often have sticky floors, filthy ovens and happy kids.
Real Mothers know that dried playdough doesn't come out of shag carpet.
Real Mothers sometimes ask "why me?" and get their answer when a little voice says, "because I love you best."
Real Mothers know that a child's growth is not measured by height or years or grade. . . It is marked by the progression of Mama to Mommy to Mother. - Author Unknown.

So sorry

Sorry that I haven't been keeping up my blog. I have been cheating on it with facebook. WHAT you say, I know I respond its horrible. Actually its quite the opposite, I am completely addicted to it. I know I need to come up with juggling system of some sort.

So my weekend wasnt anything to special. Worked Sat evening and Sunday morning. I was invited to go up to Stave again to go quading but it was cancelled due to some moron crashing his quad off a cliff into a stream of rocks and water. Actually he wasn't so much the moron but the guys helping him who thought since he was struggling and panicking to allow the man who fell at least 10ft onto his back to sit up. Yes, first aid kicked in but apparently the one guy who was brains ( shaking my head in disbelief) also had his level 3 first aid. He must of fell asleep during the part that said you do not move some with a back injury, not only were they trying to move him around but they were asking people for pain killers for him. Lets all scream together, NOOOOOOOO. I was so upset at not being heard that I threw them down a wool blanket from my car, as they hadn't wrapped him up in anything either, and sternly told the others standing by not to give him any pain killers and to keep him still till the ambulance arrived. As I walked away with my friends we all shook our heads and discussed all the horrible scenarios that could happen from what we just saw and decided that it would be best to head back to town and just have a BBQ instead and watch the game.

We did this and it was quite nice, Dane had a babysitter for Lex so after the BBQ we went for some good ol dipped cones and sat in the park enjoying the time together. So ya that was my weekend. And sorry I have no pictures to post this time.